Date: Friday, June 6, 2008
Wake Up: 6:20am
Pill: 6:45am
Medication: Vyvanse, 30mg
Current Song in my head: Guns-N-Roses, I Used To Love Her (it’s okay, I just heard it on KISW!)
General Notes:
Today was a weird today. Before I even left home I had an email from my former and possible future Principal. There was just enough information in the email to make me nervous. I am still trying to move to a school closer to home, and there was perceived progress on that front yesterday, so I did not know if my former/future principal had been notified and that was why he was asking me to call him, or if there was more concern from the school community about my return. On my way to work I had to drop my car off to have the window regulator replaced, I knew this was going to be expensive and that always makes me nervous. Add to that the fact that this was my first day on an amphetamine. I talked to someone at the school I would like to teach in next year, and there was no progress, so the past/future principal must be expressing further information about the school community. For the most part I felt really good. Upset because of the school situation, and I’m never happy to spend a ton of money on my car – and I discovered today that the window was only one of my problems, the breaks will be fixed Monday or Tuesday.
Medication Notes:
The first thing I noticed was on my drive to work. My tongue seemed to be contracting and expanding, like it was trying to find a way to fit in my mouth. My legs felt warm a few times. Being the first day it was hard to tell what behaviors and sensations were brought about by the anxiety and what was actually provided by the medicine. I will say this. At one point a co-worker asked if I had heard what the people in the cube next to us had said. Shockingly, I had not heard their conversation. This is great news. Up until today I’ve been unable to block out their conversations. Not because they’re loud (don’t get me wrong, they are) but because my mind is just too open to hearing what other people are saying! I was able to stay calm with my children this evening, even when they weren’t.
Bring on day 2!
